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As I sit here, with the sun setting low

The pages of my diary, reminiscent of you

I wonder if the smudged words are coming together

Because of my tears, or the evening dew

While you may be in another world, unaware

Finding love in the arms, of a woman new

 

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Write me letters
That smell of you
Words splattered
With early morning dew
Raw thoughts
Thrown around
As you pour your heart
I hear their sound
 
Tease me with a
Long silence
Building anticipation
A wait, taut, tense
Let me get consumed
By the spaces in between
The lines you’ve written
And those I’ve seen
 
Beg me not
To see your face
To feel your presence
Or cover this space
For if we met
It would only lead
To bitter disappointment
Caused by the greed
 

I’ve just never
Learnt to say goodbyes
No I cannot smile
Through teary eyes

I cannot bear
The thought of losing hold
Of the warmth of your hand
Leaving me empty, bereft, cold

I cannot watch your form
Disappear into the distance
Slowly, but surely, moving away
With every passing instant

I cannot look at you
To realize
It’s the last time I’m seeing
My reflection in your eyes

I cannot watch you leave
Throwing away
All that we had
To find your own way

So forgive me
If I disappoint you
Because
You disappoint me too

I’ve just never
Learnt to say goodbye
A part of me
Still wills it to be a lie

My mouth has
A salty aftertaste
Perhaps from the tears
I swallowed in haste
Maybe this is when
I should feel some pain
But my senses seem to be dulled
By the cold pouring rain

Loving you, is a bittersweet heartache
There is, too much of me at stake

I’ll forget the promises, the twinkle in your eyes
I’ll even erase the scars caused by your lies
The wounds will, with time heal
My nerves again, shall harden to steel

If you and I, we’d met another day
Perhaps, I’d plead you to stay
I can’t live that dream, not yet
I wish, despairingly, we’d never met

With the dawn of a day new
Tomorrow, I will no longer love you

Selective revelations

Make-believe

Only certain confidences

Passing through the sieve

 

Contradictions in

Your earnest voice, your shifty eyes

Give me a reason, to be blind

Give me a reason, to believe your lies

 

You love what you see
But you see so little
A decorated lie, a fabricated story
A breathing impostor, in all its glory

I thought of you
I was thine
I thought again, and cried
Because you weren’t mine
 
Not in a way, I desire
No you are not, consumed by this fire
I’d rather you not love me, ever
It is better to be loved wholly, or never
No I wish not to live, a pale imitation of it
That will kill me every day, bit by bit
Teasing me, with what could have been
Not just a wretched lie, or a passing dream

 

 

Would it change anything
If now if I said
I loved you
And this time, the words were true?
If this once
They didn’t echo
Of hollow emptiness
Would it make the pain any less?
Or is it too late
To go back
To make any amends
While you believe I merely pretend?
A safe distance, from afar
Hidden, ugly scars
 
A step closer, uncertain
A glimpse of what’s behind the curtain
 
An instant too late
Love, replaced by hate
 
The moment, irreversible
Every deceit, discernible
 
The dream tarnished
Against my wish
 
Another disappointment
To my mind lent
 
Deep within, a familiar stir
Maybe I am simply, looking in the mirror.
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